Yet another year in my life, that could ended quickly before a 1st one, as even C-section was giving risks to my mother and doctors recommended to her to halt pregnancy until the last hours.
When darkness of my mind takes over me, which sadly happens often, can’t say that I didn’t liked to have this possible outcome of my story
But coming back to this another lived by me year:
-
After 4 years of being outside of my fatherland and being sad and alone, because my first college-relationships died from being separated for several thousand kilometres for years, I finally found myself in love again.
-
Thought that I found the inner peace
-
Started hitting gym together with her on July 13th.
-
Broke up with her after 3 months being happily together, 2 last weeks were a horror of silent-treatment for me.
-
Lost inner peace
-
But continued to hitting gym
-
Quickly started new relationships just to cope, which more turned to be a gym buddy gf
-
Ended it after 1 month after a first try to manipulate me. Didn’t hurt me, but that’s was weird.
-
Continued to hitting gym, started running which never did before in my life
-
Started going to the drivers school, now preparing for the theory exam.
-
Started heavy lifting which never did either, progressed from 50kg(110lbs) deadlift to 100kg(220lbs), bench press 20kg(44lbs) to 65kg(143lbs), shoulder press empty barbell to 30kg(66lbs), running 6km/h 20min to 11km/h, pull-ups 4 to 10.
-
Moved to another university, though still computer engineering and not biology/medicine as I wished.
-
Understood that it’s was terrible idea to cope yours mental problems and unhappiness with love. And that you need find peace while being single.
-
During this time a good pen pal friend in whom
I found no romantical interests, slowly turned into a distance relationship -
Started walking daily a lot again, trying to walk at least 10km a day.
-
Learning now how to play electric guitar.
-
Slowly regaining my inner peace back
